My phone is on silent and flipped upside down so that I can’t see incoming messages and/or phone calls. My face is red and my eyes are puffy, I’ve been crying. David and I had a fight. I already don’t even remember what it was about. I’m mad, he’s mad. We’ll get over it, we always do.
Over the course of our millions of years together, there have been days that I just want to throw in the towel. There have been days that I’ve been so mad that I’ve looked up divorce lawyers.
There have been days that I’ve looked at houses in other places and made budgets on what I could afford on my own.
I’m sure there will more days like this.
Marriage is not easy, friends. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies. It’s hard. It’s a lot of work. It’s painful. It’s real.
There are days that I scream and cry, and then there are days that I can’t wait til he gets home from work and we can just cuddle on the couch and binge watch whatever show we’re currently on.
From the get go, we’ve said that the only way out is in a pine box. We knew when we got married that this was it. We loved each other then and still do today. But it’s not always easy. I don’t think he poops out glitter and I’m sure he doesn’t think that about me.
It takes work. It’s hard. Throw in 3 kids, 2 dogs, a cat… it gets a bit harder.
Throw in him sometimes being gone for long periods of time.
Throw in deployments.
Throw in nights that he’s stuck at work all night long.
Throw in moving around a lot. Throw in knowing nobody and having no family near.
Throw in a sick kid (or 3).
Throw in dog puke.
Or cat liter being eaten.
Or a dog barking for the millionth time.
Or a kid asking to sleep in your room.
It’s a lot of work.
It’s rewarding, I wouldn’t want to do life with anyone else, but that doesn’t mean it’s always easy breezy.
I hope I never give off the impression that we’re all rainbows and butterflies because we’re not.
That’s jut not life. I want to be very real. I never want to come across as a fake person or like I’m pretending to be something I’m not.
I hope that you’ve never thought that about me and/or my life.
I want people to know that when they read something from me, or see a picture, that it’s a good moment, that it’s real and that I wanted to share with the world, but I don’t want anyone to ever think that our life is perfect or that I’m putting on some front. Life is life, guys. It’s hard sometimes. It takes work. It’s rewarding and amazing but it’s not always easy or perfect.
So please, next time you see me post a happy go lucky picture, remember this post — remember that I’m puffy eyed & snot nosed because of a stupid fight with my “perfect” husband.